Huh?

I don’t know why. That is the long and short of why I do this. Oh, you can recommend a psychiatrist if you want but even he or she has no real idea of why I do this. Ego? Absolutely not, are you kidding?! If I had an eho I would be pursuing big bucks for doing this. Aren’t ego and money a combination for so called success? Success in this phase of the world is not what I search for. I am old and yet I search, still. I’ve never really stopped searching.

At seventy-eight one would think I had retired and found my path to certain death. That is far too negative for me so I search. Death is a fact of life so I figure when it gets here I may or may not know it. This is where the word, “depends,” comes in and I am not speaking of adult diapers wise guy! I am speaking of God, a far cry from diapers. I believe in God with all my heart and soul. I’ve been through combat in which a prayer before going into combat was answered and I came back home with all my limbs and a reasonably intact mind. On the job training in my belief system in which God is at the very top.

And you thought I was some shallow comedian that needed to look for another line of work! I am old but far from devoid of process. I wake up thinking and go to bed thinking. About what do I think? About scripture and where we are in scriptural history. That is the only history that walks past death into the future. into infinity. A path that is difficult to find in a sinful world but even harder to stay on the path once found. So many temptations out there in the lost mind of this world.Crazy describes our world as well as anything else. Before long we are going to throw our last party and go loudly complaining to God into oblivion. Some of us may be accepted though. That is what my life is about. Still, I have doubts as to what I am in store for.

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